| London |
[May. 24th, 2008|09:40 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | danu, england, exams, london, me, medicine, newcastle, tourism, work | ] |
| [ | ?איפה בעזאזל · Where the hell? |
| | London, England, UK | ] |
| [ | מרגיש · Feeling |
| | grumpy | ] |
| [ | מקשיב ל · Listening To |
| | 101.6 City FM from Dubai | ] |
My final exams for first year finished on Thursday. I had the practical exam on Tuesday, went alright, I screwed up in a few places, but I reckon I'll pass. Then we had the first of the two multiple choice question [MCQ] exams on Wednesday - and when I say multiple choice, I really do mean multiple choice - they give us so many options, it's untrue! That exam went well. The last exam which was on Thursday, was also an MCQ exam but it involves more critical thinking and the use of calculator. I usually like this one over the other, but the one we had on Thursday was mental rape. I walked out of the exam feeling like there were so many things that I was unsure of, despite having revised everything at least twice. But then everybody else felt like that too, so I wasn't the only one. Comforting, but not exactly since the possibility of failing first year medicine is now quite real and always frightening. Even so, I think I can say that I'm one-fifth of a doctor now. Just four (long) years to go.
An hour after our exams ended, I was at the Central Station, waiting for at train to London. I'd booked the tickets ages ago and the prices for the 22nd had been amazingly cheap. On the train, I sat next to a guy named Edward and his mother. Edward was special needs and he had the most amazing things to say that made me laugh and took my mind off the bad exam. When I was describing India to him, he said, "What makes my eyes go as green as an emerald is the number of gods you have in India!" He spent a lot of time walking me through his favorite computer game. Amazing guy.
Once we arrived at Kings Cross station in central London, I got a week's pass for the Tube and took the tube to my friend's at whose place I am right now.
On Friday morning, I checked my university e-mail and found out that the results for the Family Study a.k.a the Pregnant Lady Project, the biggest assignment of the year for first year medics - the results for that were up. I got really excited because I'd been waiting for them, expecting really good grades because I'd put my heart and soul into it, referenced tens of journals, textbooks and websites in order to show that I know my stuff and to show off my referencing skills. Good grades? We get marked and graded in three different categories: skills, knowledge and professionalism. They gave me an S [satisfactory] for skills, B [borderline fail] for knowledge and S for professionalism. It's fine that they gave me an S for skills even though I'd word-processed and referenced my assignment perfectly. It's fine that they gave me an S for professionalism even though I'd been completely professional about everything not just in the written assignment, but also in my meetings with the pregnant mum. What's not fine is the B for knowledge. Borderline fail! What was my knowledge so deficient in that they decided to give me such a humiliating grade?! I'd spent hours and hours in the library and on the Internet reading whole chapters and journal articles about a range of topics, trying to make sense of the statistics and such that I had no clue about before and used them in my assignment. It just wasn't good for my self-esteem. I had a mini panic attack when I saw the results, it was just so hard to swallow. I was supposed to meet my cousins in central London but suddenly I wanted to dig a hole and bury myself in it. Especially when my friend from Newcastle texted me to say she'd got S, M (Merit) & S - and she'd started writing the essay a few days before the deadline.
Anyway, I went out to meet my cousins and their aunty in central London. I got off the Tube at Hyde Park Corner and then walked towards Buckingham Palace and met them on the way there. They were having the change of guards at Buckingham Palace [which looks quite slobby, to be honest]. They'd attracted a crowd of hundreds, mostly foreigners. We watched that for a bit and then walked towards Westminster Abbey, Big Ben and the Houses of Parliament. We crossed the Westminster Bridge to have lunch on the south bank of the Thames. Was quite good. After lunch, we took a bus, walked across the London Bridge and then took the Tube to Tower Hill where the Tower of London is. When we got there, I put my hand in my right pocket to get my phone out to check for texts and missed calls.. but I realized it wasn't there. I had ANOTHER mini panic attack and realized I'd lost my mobile phone. I'm sure it fell out of my wide-mouthed pockets on the Tube. When we tried ringing it, it was switched off, probably because it was underground. Somehow I got through looking at everything in the Tower of London, which would've been quite interesting if I'd paid full attention to it. Sadly I don't have any pictures to post because, like a chump, I forgot my camera in Newcastle. What an idiot.
My friend whom I'm staying with took me out to the scene in London. It's obviously more crowded than the one in Newcastle. With better music.
The past two days just haven't been good for me. Today I'll buy myself a new mobile phone because I'm paralyzed without one. Surely after a difficult time comes an easy time, doesn't it? So there's something good in store for me? |
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